Once again I am in a position where I have needed to make a big decision and it is scary. Scary because about a year ago I had to make a big decision and I learned that although it needed to happen, it turned out not to be the best decision for me. So now when I am faced with big decisions I am left questioning myself. That is a hard thing to swallow. I have all of these ideas, dreams, etc. and I know that this decision I must make will prolong the dreams that A. and I have together - house, family, etc. - but an opportunity has presented itself that I feel that I need to take. With every decision made, other things or people become affected by those decisions. Knowing this, I was up all of last night. A leap of faith. A new challenge. Another change. An opportunity to grow and learn.
I am really looking forward to my day today. I am heading up to Surtex to walk the show. A friend of mine who has a booth this year for the first time - yay! - was generous to get me a pass. While there I am having lunch with another friend who is working the show and I have not seen in ages!
I used to attend Surtex for my job when I worked up in NYC, but the job I have now we do things a little differently. I am walking the show for myself. Can't wait.
I have real estate on the brain. A. and I have started the very beginning stages of looking for a house. The house we are in currently is a temporary situation helping my family fix it up to sell. It had belonged to my grandparents and over time it has become very dated and needs TLC. A. and I were in a position last year when I left my job in NYC to be a little closer to home where we could take on the role of "house fixer uppers." It has been a bit difficult and we are looking forward to the day that we can have a place of our own, but we need to figure out where that will be.
Since I have house hunting, or house dreaming (call it what you will), in the forefront of my mind I have been all over the internet looking for ideas of what I want in a house. I stumbled upon author Jane Green's beautiful home that she and her husband had built. I am most fond of the kitchen which extends to a sitting area. I could totally see myself in a kitchen just like this. I am not sure how much cooking I would actually do. Ha! Actually I enjoy cooking, but it is the clean up that I try to avoid.
I cannot foresee that our kitchen or house even will look remotely like this, but I am filing this away for the "one day."
When it comes to clothing I seem to be all over the place. Some days I gravitate toward somewhat preppy, bright and happy colors, and then I gravitate toward neutrals, whites, blacks and greys. Although my tastes may fluctuate depending on what mood I am in, ever since I was a young girl I have loved the style of Donna Karan. I recently came across the website of her more recent venture, Urban Zen. The clothes are beautiful. What adds to the beauty is that attached to the clothing line is a foundation, also called Urban Zen, whose mission is (taken directly from the site):
"The Urban Zen Foundation creates, connects and collaborates to raise awareness and inspire change in the areas of well-being, preserving cultures and empowering children in mind, body and spirit. Urban Zen designs forums, partners with existing organizations and brings together experts to define solutions and implement action."
As a designer I have been trying to find a way to meld design with the purpose of doing good in some way. I am still on that path, trying to find the direction to go in. I feel inspired by what Donna Karan has created.